11:58 p.m. - October 26, 2005
Best Friends... forever?
This week has been too long... I stupidly missed the show i was supposed to see over the weekend thinking it was at night not during the day.. So i had to buy another ticket since i have a review due tomorrrow.. The woman who sold me the ticket said it was for yestday night. So i went yesterday and oops no show.. You'd think i'd learn to check my tickets.. Thankfully the show was tonight now i just have to stop putting off... The good news is that i got a B on my midterm in TAR.. My grades are looking up.
So i may or may not be getting sick my throat is kinda sore but i took some nyqull last night and when i got up this morning i'm like woah was i really asleep...
Julie IMed me today. She's imed me before but it was under another name which she thought i didn't know. That time i just told her why bother trying to hide and just im me on her normal name or talk like a normal person. So i guess it took her awhile but she imed me. She just wanted to know how i was and that she missed me.. It's hard for me to really say much i tried to be nice but not 'i want to be your bestfriend again' nice. I would be lying if i said i didn't miss her but i think at this point i just miss the way things used to be. It's an odd felling that only one who dumbed or has been dumbed by a best friend could really know. I find myself thinking of her or being reminded of her by other people. I guess i'll always remeber the good times since she was such a big part of my life... Things are diffent now because of her. I'm not as naive with friends and others. I'm alittle shyier around new people and alittle less willing to get close to someone. It's come to the point where i'll do alot of thinking before i'll call someone a best friend again....
In the end i don't know if i would change things. Would i have been better off not being her friend? Who knows everything happens for a reasion. Maybe something good will come of it. As for her i hope she moves on and gets in control of her life... I can only wish the best for her and her family....
~Laura
