1:42 a.m. - 2004-07-19
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It's late. Too late. I'm 'studying' which means i'm trying not too. My test in Psychology is tomorrow and I know i'm gonna forget all of it. What can I say the computer is alot more fun than note cards(even if they are bight colors).
Saw my grandfather today aka 'papa'. The man can't drive. Yet he does. I doubt it's safe and he couldn't give a shit. He took me out to lunch and to buy a stero for my birthday, which was the other day i'm now 19, we went to best buy. He has never been into Best Buy before!! My god has he been living in a cave i mean how can you not have even been in a store like best buy. Anyway he told dumb stoies about his youth and talked alittle too much about my friend Nancy, the only firend he knows. Hes just doing it because i got mad at him for telling me to join curves and didn't want to talk to him again. what an ass. It would piss me off how he would tell me how to run my life and my body. I only wish i had asked him about his girlfriend susie, hes still married too. He hates that I know about her. Damnt i wish i asked him about her. Oh well always another time.
So i'm still 'seeing' the guy i met online. I'm still not sure about what i feel. Sure hes real nice and funny and so sweet and i should be all happy and shit but i don't know how i feel. It's kinda like i see him as a friend? but maybe not. Looking back on all my past relationships, never lasted more than a month, it was the samething all i felt was hes a friend. But before i had the 'crush' feeling like hes soo cute or something about him makes me like him more than a friend but this guy i don't know if i have the feeling. Then i go an think ok so maybe i'm gay but.. i haven't felt anything for other girls so i doubt that for now atleast.
I should be studying but yet even the wall is so much more intruging than the bilogical view. Feh!
Speaking of Feh! i'm on ch. 9 of my fan fic it's going slower than i expected, damn lazyness. this time i got almost no reviews.. but this chapter has to be better i have to move on from this one day lol. i'm draging it out too much. Also I have download alot of Inuyasha off of winmx niceee now i have seen up epi 146. 147-148 dosn't seem to work right but my 'friend'( i know her from online) amanda sent it to me so we will have to see if it works..
I just got my roomate infomation and i emailed the poor gitl a long ass email cuz gess what i don't wanna study. She gonna be like this Laura chick is crazy. Oh well. I only have less then a month left until i leave for HI. I'm soo excited!! I have to go shopping for more clothes.. you would think that would be a good thing. but you know i'm so damn picky and with my waist size changing, not for the better, i have to find the right thing. I also have to watch what i eat and keep up my journaling i just keep forgeting.
I know good things are headed my way it's in the cards but i'm bored already. it takes so long.
Ok now i have to go and study for real before i fall alseep cuz it's fucking 2 in the morning. Feh! I hate homework and i wish i had good study skills. someday i'll read this and laugh out loud about all of it and how stupid i was but for now i'll leave you with this....
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
