10:12 p.m. - 2003-10-13
Money, School, Work.. so this is growing up
It's been awile since i have written. I have been just doing the same old thing. sleeping, working and going out. But i'm goging to start doing better. Before work I will go to yoga or the gym. Then go to work. The come home eat a good meal with hardly anything i'm allergic to... mainly dairy and wheet, which is what i manily eat. After that I will maybe go out for a few hours with friends but will be home before midnight, so i can get a good night sleep. I will also keep up with weight watchers, i need to get helthy, not because of the way i look, not becuse i don't want to get diabetes like my dad. If i'm not working I'll go to the gym or yoga then spend time wiht my other friends becieds julie and bret, ilove them but i need to see my other friends, like Kaite i know we could get alot closer. I'm also goging to have a tutor to help improve everything.
Ok thats that heres now. I got off early today yay! Dad was here when i came home. He asked if i wanted ot go to Arizona next year. I was like yea. so he sai di had to get the application online.. This made me think. I have just gotten ajusted to being at home when i have to think about next year again. I donno what to do. I want to go back, that was the plan, i just hope i'm making the right choise. The upside to being there is that i know 4 people Amanda,Kyle,Sarah, and Justinee pluss i know what to do to get help where to go what classes to take. plus i'll have some college classes under my belt. I will also have family in Ca so i can go there on the weekends when eveyone else is going home. That will be nice. I was thinking about gettign my own place here. That way i will be ajusted to living on my own. But i have no money and the money i'm making is not enough for an apt. I wonder if i make a deal wiht my dad that he pays for it and i'll pay for eveything else and a lower rent? I dobut it. I could always get another partime job. Somewhere wiht competive pay? where? I just don't want to be another cashier. i'm streesingout about all this. i have to save my money for what? why? Something tells me i have to start saving. lucky for me skinny clothes are cheeper then fat clothes. I need some help. I need advise. I nedd money!! Why can't things be easy like in the good old days. I nedd to learn what to do.. I want ot be an adult but i want to be a kid.
