10:32 p.m. - 2003-08-26
Maybe this college thing is a bad choise after all
My card still dosen't work. I'm starting to wonder if Arizona is for me. I mean, I miss home so much, my friends the most. I don't know what to think. I can get an education anywhere even maryland. I just miss my life. I have no life here. I have my roomate who has her life and her boyfriend and Sarah who i hardly know and has homework to do. Maybe I should trasfer to maryland or montgomery collage. I'm so mixed up. It's depressing... what should I do. I have gone so far, I don't want to give up now. I want to go back to high school where everything was so much easier and planed out for you. I want to be with Nancy, Alicia, Julie and eveyone so much. Yet I don't want to let my family down.. I don't want to give up all my hard work that I did to get here. I want my home, my bed, my room, my mom, my dogs, cats , my dad, my LIFE! Why am I crying now. can i do this collage thing? Should I give up? Should I suck it up? Should I call my mother? Here I am in arizona at 10:42pm listing to my favorte CD, Amry of Me, crying and typing over the internet to a bunch of people who don't care. I need help!!
